Shining the light of God's word into our confused world.

Up and down and around and around

I’m being run through a bit of an emotional wringer today. It started this morning with a terribly upsetting dream about my mom, the details of which I don’t even want to revisit except to say that I had to call her after just to hear her voice and make sure she’s okay. I still won’t be totally over it until I get to hug my mommy.

The middle of the day zoomed to the top of the roller coaster (I’m mixing my metaphors, I’m so wrung out! Except that I usually mix them all up anyway) with a former reader writing and offering to do something really nice for me, just because she enjoyed my little fan fictions. I also did a little self-promotion for …which hasn’t attracted any new readers yet, but hopefully word of mouth will spread once I’ve posted a few chapters.

And then. And then, the benefits meeting. It literally made me cry. Raised premiums, raised copays, $10 copay on generic drugs (whereas currently we don’t have one), and that alone is enough to break us. I also learned that we don’t get paid maternity leave, which may or may not ever be relevant to us, but it still sucks to have to consider that when making the decision. I’m a bit at a loss right now as to what we’re going to do, other than what we usually do, which is to hang in there and hope that it will somehow work out and we’ll be okay.

At least I still HAVE a job with benefits, right?


  1. sunbrae

    Ouch. Sounds like a rough day. *hugs*

  2. ms_scarletibis

    I feel you on the “creepy dream” thing. I’ve had a few myself I wish I could forget…
    And yes–it’s great you still have a job with benefits as opposed to none. There’s always an upside 😀

  3. wanabemore

    I’m so sorry you’ve had such a day. sunbrae is right – hugs are definitely needed…

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