Shining the light of God's word into our confused world.

Pretty toes are the cure to all my woes.

I’m not sure whether it’s because I haven’t had time to indulge any of my creative outlets lately (which always drives me a little buggy and/or into a fit of despair), or if it’s that today has been particularly overwhelming (our plumbing broke, and work is trying to be stressful, and I’m having to stay at the office really late to make up the time I lost this morning to the broken plumbing), or if it’s just general tiredness (this weekend was productive, as far as putting things away and getting organized, but it was pretty dumb of me not to just get some rest), but I’m dealing with some pretty major self-doubt right now.

Specifically, I’m doubting whether Hero Factor is worth even finishing, let alone posting. I’ve been working on this story for far longer than common sense would allow, and by this point finishing it is more a matter of principle than desire. Well, sometimes there’s desire. I still love these characters and I want their story to be told. But at times like these the only thing that keeps me going is principle, because I’ve got too many unfinished stories under my belt and by golly, this won’t be one of them.

Unless maybe it should be. Maybe it’s time to let it go and move on.

What I really need right now is a pedicure. Thirty minutes in a pedi chair is as good as any massage, plus at the end I have pretty feet to show for it. And it would put me in the right frame of mind to make these kinds of decisions; the kind that probably wouldn’t even arise were I getting proper amounts of R&R; the kind of non-dilemma wherein I should stop whining and get to writing.

Right then. I guess that’s settled.


  1. ms_scarletibis

    Nooo!!! Don’t give up–persevere! Per. Sev. Ere…
    Be a stubborn mule and say “Is Jean gonna have to smack a Muse? You’re my bitch, damn it and do as I say!”

    • Jean

      Hee! My muse definitely could use a good smacking.

  2. sunbrae

    Hang in there. Don’t make any decisions when you’re tired and grumpy. Get a good night’s sleep, eat a good breakfast, have some coffee, then look at the situation rationally.
    In other words, no. Don’t give up. *huggles*

    • Jean

      Thanks, sweetie. I guess I might be putting a little too much pressure on myself, what with all of the changes in my life. Stupid ADD makes these things seem like immediate crises that OMG must be solved or decided NOW! A good night’s sleep — and the wisdom of good friends — usually gives me some perspective.
      *huggles* Praying for you, btw.

  3. bojojoti

    There is so much upheaval when you move, and it takes a while for your Muses to relocate and settle in Give yourself some time before making a final decision.

    • Jean

      You’re right. I have a tendency (that you might have noticed) to blow these things up in my mind into crises that…aren’t (see above). Usually, I’m just not getting enough sleep/exercise/healthy food, or as in the last few weeks, none of the above. Sheesh, no wonder I’m whiny lately. I just need a nap.

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